fool.

yes i'm a fool.
yes i'm quite stupid.
and idiotic. and shallow. and superficial.
definitely materialistic.

yes, i'm not much.
i'm neither talented nor passionate.

i got by looking just pretty enough,
being fair-skinned enough,
and being school-smart enough.

i don't have things that i really want to do.
i'm indecisive as fuck, and shy, and a coward.
i don't speak nicely nor behave maturely.

i did lots of things back then.
i used to write a lot, and draw a lot.
i used to dance a lot too.
but i never took anything too far.

i repeated this for 20 years.
i got nothing.

so yeah maybe i have to be on my own now.
maybe i have to leave a space for me to grow now.
if i am not happy with who i am right now, how could anyone be?